Friday, January 16, 2015

Learning so much

Over the past week I am devouring books.  For years I convinced myself that I was too busy to read, but guess what...I am not.  An extra 30 minutes at night, sitting in the carpool line, while holding my daughter...I have plenty of time to read.  In this past week I have read almost 300 pages...and an intense 300 pages.  I have gained so much wisdom on adoption and hurting children from professionals and those who walk before me.  I am seeing God's perfect hand writing our new family story.  It is intense at times but also beautiful.  

I wanted to share an excerpt from Three Mustard Seeds.

Since the beginning of her placement with us things were rocky.  We were on this roller coaster ride where the drops were getting bigger, deeper and the peaks hardly raised up anymore.  The roller coaster left the sunlight behind and we were riding this out of control car in the pitch black.  Gone were the days of dirty looks and stubbornness, oh how we missed those, and we were presently living in a state where urinateing throughout the house was the normal, days where she stopped eating on her own and when we tried to feed her she would open her mouth and let all the food fall into her lap or the floor.  There were days when she would not leave her room or acknowledge the existence of our family.  You see, she was not saying "I hate you, leave me alone".  She was saying, "no one has ever loved me or stuck with me so this time instead of being take away I am leaving on my terms.  I am the one that will make things so hard on you that you push me out the door in my timing."  She had worked hard for weeks and knew she was finally wearing us down.  One morning she laid in bed naked, having refused to put on pajamas the night before.  Her bed was soaked from one side to the other with urine.  She strategically faced herself away from the door to be sure she could not accidentally have eye contact with anyone.  I walked in her room sitting down quietly in her rocking chair.  No response.  I went in again and sat in the rocking chair.  This time I spoke. No response.  A third time, I crawled in bed with her, came face to face.  For a moment she just laid there with her eyes downcast and then she made the decision to look up and smile. She came back around.  God showed me where to meet her at her darkest hour.  He knew exactly where she needed to be met because she is a beautiful, precious child of His.  God is ready and waiting to meet us in our darkest hour.  He is there lying with you in your urinated bed. He is there with you after your weeks and weeks of bad behavior.  All you need to do is look upon Him.

Monday, January 12, 2015

Little Golden Nuggets

God is giving me little golden nuggets.  They come as answers to so many of your prayers.  These prayers are so valuable and we so appreciate them.  Please keep them coming.  The healing process for Karis will take years.

A friend of our family suggested that we read, "Parenting the Hurt Child".  We ordered this book back in September but due to lack of availability it did not arrive to our house until the end of November.  At that time I figured I was too busy to read a book and just set it aside for a later day.  Last week I was sitting down after putting the kids to bed I noticed it on the coffee table.  I decided it was a good time to pick it up and read TRANSLATED - through your prayers God brought it in front of me again as a good resource.  The book is incredible.  It has taught me so much.  I am a little over half way done and am reading it as much as I can.  I have already started implementing some of the strategies and they are working!  They are strategies you would rarely, if ever,  use in your home unless dealing with a severally traumatized child.

We also tapped into another great resource this week, post adoption therapy with Lifeline.  We met with the therapist on Friday and again today.  Karis and I begin our Theraplay sessions Wednesday and Karis and Preston begin theirs on Friday.  This will give us more insight into Karis and equip us with specific ways of handling her unique situation.

Please continue your prayers.  Some days are moment by moment and your prayers are what keeps us all going.  We look forward to the day when Karis is completely restored and able to function well within a family.  Since she was 8 at her time of adoption, she will most likely be 16 or older, when we are close to achieving this goal.

Sunday, January 4, 2015

What happens when the price is too high?

What happens when the price is too high?  We walk away.  We put down our object and walk out of the store or we politely and quickly finish our small part of the big task and run back to our homes, our comfort zone.

What happens when the price is too high and you can't escape it?  When it consumes every moment of your life, even keeping you up til the wee hours of the morning.  What happens when your entire family is consumed and traumatized?  What price is too high in your life?  (Please share it with me because I would love to pray for you and stand beside you through this time.)

There are many times in my life over the past five years when the price felt too high: giving birth to triplets at 24 weeks, death of our daughter Mia, 131 days in the NICU, not able to return to Asia and resume our work, and Nathan and Owen's diagnosis of cerebral palsy.

With God, the price is never too high.  He has already paid the highest price of all by sending His perfect Son, Jesus, to die on the cross for my sins.  Because He became a man and dwelt among us, He knows our pain and suffering.  He strengthens us and carries us through these though times.  He also created each of us to live in fellowship with each other and pray for one another.  God uses prayer and fellowship as one way He carries us through these though times.

We are now in another season when the price seems too high.  Karis's transition into our family is way more difficult (to put it lightly) than we had expected.  All day, every day right now is met with great difficulty.  (If you are interested in praying in specifics I am glad to share with you individually.) Again, we desperately need your prayers and fellowship.

Thursday, December 25, 2014

Christmas at the Hites

Santa visited our house last night.  Logan was so excited he made sure everyone was in bed early.  He then woke me up at 5:00, but since everyone else was asleep I convinced him to rest in bed with Preston and I until 6:00.  All the kids loved opening their presents and praying with them all day.

 Seeing the present from Mom and Dad for the first time.
 We all enjoyed a yummy pancake and strawberry breakfast together.
 The trampoline is the gift from Mom and Dad.

 Using some of her color wonder book from Santa.
 Nathan loves his Disney Planes action shifter toy.  He can play it all by himself, and loves it.
 The Freis and Watts came over for lunch.  We enjoyed a delicious lunch and fun opening presents.

Wednesday, December 17, 2014

Nathan and Owen's school Christmas Party

The boys had great Christmas parties!

Owen made reindeer food, a reindeer cookie and sang songs.

Nathan made some crafts, exchanged presents and sang songs.

Wednesday, December 3, 2014

Busy enjoying life

We are busy enjoying life!  This is one of my favorite times of year.

On November 14th, Nathan and Owen turned 5.  We had a small birthday party for them this year, but no less fun.  They enjoyed having family and a few really close family friends over to celebrate.  Our theme this year was school buses!  Nathan is absolutely in love with the school bus.

The boys also celebrated at school!  They enjoyed eating school bus cookies with their friends and having Preston and I there for lunch and story time.

 We decided to add a few furry friends to our family.  Logan has been wanting pets, so we decided dogs would be good.  I did lots of research and we decided on King Charles Cavaliers.  A few weeks ago we took a road trip and adopted these two: Marlie and Charlie.  They are brother and sister.  They are 10 years old, so WAY PAST the puppy phase.  They are totally trained, lay around and sleep most of the day and are wonderful with all four kids.  Logan is doing an incredible job taking care of them...and he has decided that dogs are pretty good after all....just not big ones yet!

Nathan and Owen enjoy going crazy in the ball pit.

We enjoyed a special visit with our friends, the Cooks.  We miss seeing them!

Karis is spending some extra time at home with me over the next couple of months.  Today she was a great running partner...just give her Oreos and LaLa.  She really enjoyed riding in the stroller.

Yesterday we went for a long walk.  I wanted to be sure she is getting good exercise since she is not getting PE every day.